6.15 At Jack's


15 June 2020. At Jack's.

That's what we always said, regardless of who might be there. Always an old-school (old country) kind of welcome--something about the paintings, the worn furrniture, the casual seriousness--anticipation--of ideas and conversation, camaraderie. And music, of course, Jack and Klara sitting together on the couch late one evening--probably midnight--maybe even holding hands. The song was something Russian--or maybe Goodnight Irene. He'd balked at the way I did it, years ago--Jack could be a stickler for getting things right--but by now we'd grown used to these varieties and variations together--and what was important (always) was a place for a certain quality of feeling.

I connected this with the Russians, of course--having grown up with a measure of it as a boy. The evenings with my father's friends (Uncle Howard, Uncle Jimmy) gathered around the low rattan couch table in the living room, glasses of scotch, a tray of rye bread hors d'oeuvres prepared with his special avocado and anchovy... All of them people I loved so very much without even knowing why...

I'm saying that a lot lately. "Without even knowing why..." As in the drawing here--Zoya and Klara, with me alongside. There's someone to the right--just the hands--and we're listening, attentively. That's the point--we're listening...

My love for all of them as well...
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Note: It's a pretty accurate drawing, which makes me happy. Missing Zoya's ancient hands--maybe that's okay. She'd have preferred it this way. But it has Klara's smile. And somehow I look like they've pulled me out off one of those early Renoir's, there on the balcony over the river...